January 21, 2008
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This is too hard.
I cant eat and my heart is broken. i have had two bowls of cheerios and a few cups of tea since yesterday
I wke up at 5 am sobbing. I miss him.
we will go to the vet soon, with Caesar’s body. Hubby is here. He is a strong guy.
Please, just pray for me, send vibes, what ever. I am crippled with grief over a cat i have had for over 16 years.
Caesar was a treasure.
Please pray that the vet experience will be good. we want to have him cremated.
Please just pray. The pain is unbearable right now.I love all of you.
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Oh Rosemary….
When I had to have my orange Kittwyn put to sleep, he was 17. He had been with me through my lousy marriage and divorce and was such a warm and loving baby who brought me so much comfort. He was like a dog in that he came when I called him, went to the track and followed me around it as I ran. He purrrred like a machine and he slept on my pillow and always snuggled with me if I lay on the couch.
The day I had to say goodbye, I stayed in my bedroom closet for most of the day when we got home from the vets. I wailed like a baby. I couldn’t imagine my world without him being a part of him. He was so very special. I have a ball of fur from the last time I combed him..he was sick and I knew what I was going to have to do…and I kept his catnip fuzzy rat and his catnip fuzzy carrot and his comb. I still take them out and cry and smell his fur. Crazy? No. I just miss him. It’s been six years.
I know you’re broken hearted, but that’s a good thing. It speaks to the special relationship you had with Caesar and that he wasn’t just a ‘cat’. It shows you understand how to understand an animal and love an animal as if it were your own child. Time does heal, but for now it’s going to be really lousy. And it will hit you at the most inoppertune times. Every black and white kitty you see will remind you of him. But that’s ok. It keeps him closer in your heart.
You’ll get through this. Believe me. Just cry when you feel like it and don’t worry about it. There’s no shame in loving Caesar the way you do.
Love you ParsleyRosemary.
Bonnie..your animal lover friend.
My dear friend. You helped me through so much with giving our precious little JouJou her treatments.
You know where my heart is and I understand so very completely.
I am praying for you.
(Would you believe I was insulted and chewed out (received a real tongue lashing ) by a 26 year old for talking about my grief????) So many wonderful supportive people here …but there are also others…)
I am so sorry that you lost your beloved cat. It’s hard to lose a pet-it’s like a family member to us animal lovers. Its ok to cry–
((((((Rosemary)))))
I empathize so deeply with you. The grief comes in waves, I find. When the wave comes, just go with it. Cry. Remember. Pound a pillow. Then it’ll be calm again until the next wave. Grief is how we heal…it is part of loving. Please know that I am sitting here with you, grieving alongside you. I will be praying. God stores all our tears in His flask….He is holding You right now.
Oh! I’ll be praying for you and that the vet experience will be a good one.
I’m so glad you have your strong guy Hubby with you. You have him and so many others behind you. You’re not alone. 
I’m so sorry. I wish I could help somehow. Hugging you in my heart…
I’m sorry.
Prayer has been sent for your comfort Rosemary. I am so sorry.
My hubby thinks I’m strong and I think he is -so we help each other.
I am so, so sorry to read this! Rosemary, if there’s anything I could do or say to make you feel better I’d do it or say in in a heartbeat. All I can do is pray for you and yours honey. I’m just so sorry.